Eyes to See
Too often I take glimpses of God’s grandeur for granted.
It started with a startlingly large black spot.
I was restraining 80 pounds of enthusiastic puppy from bounding through an open door when I saw it: a dark, sinister object floating in my left eye. I blinked, stood up, and rubbed my eye in the hope I’d oust an errant eyelash invading my vision. But rising and sinking, twirling and spinning hypnotically in its sea of ocular fluid, the amoeba-like invader remained.
I’d experienced small “floaters” in my eyes before. Yet this one’s unexpected onset—not to mention size—concerned me. I shot a quick prayer to God for peace to replace panic. Then faced with an annoying floater, a too-quiet house, and an energetic puppy prone to mischief, I decided to distract my pup and myself with a road trip to the dog park.
As I wound through the rural roads leading to this pet-lovers’ sweet spot, the visual beauty of all I drove past overcame me. Fields of silvery, wheat-like stalks offset by burnished burr oaks and a barn or two; rusty potpourris of leaves scuttling across pavement; roughened whitewashed fences guarding still-lush lawns; clay pots brimming with orange and gold mums; a cloudless cerulean sky; sunshine spilling over everything, glittery, bright, and bountiful.
I suddenly remembered a few lines from the poem “God’s Grandeur,” by Gerard Manley Hopkins, which I’d studied as a literature major in college many years ago: “The world is charged with the grandeur of God. / It will flame out, like shining from shook foil.” Despite that ever-present black spot that levitated across my left eye’s vision, I saw God’s grandeur flaming out.
Not long after my time at the park—spent delighting over the beauty of my dog’s shining black coat, white-toothed grin, and pure joy as he leapt through tall grasses—the lightning flashes in my left eye began. Each time I turned my head, light burst along the periphery of my vision. I knew I needed to visit the ophthalmologist as soon as possible.
The next day, my eyes stinging from yellow drops, I endured a thorough eye exam. Using intensely bright light, my physician carefully scrutinized my retinas for signs of a serious problem. A couple hours later, with pupils still dilated to a frightening degree, I rode home from the eye clinic with good news: my left eye had no retinal tear or detachment.
I wondered, though, how God’s grandeur would have continued to, as Hopkins wrote, “gather to a greatness,” if my sight somehow had diminished.
Sitting on my sofa in the dim evening light, I petted Boomer’s silky fur and pondered how often I take my sight for granted. And in that moment of quiet reflection, God reminded me he’s not just Lord of umber, maize, cerulean, and terra cotta. He’s God of soft touch and rustling sound and earthy scent, of chill and warmth, loud and still, tart and sweet. His glory wouldn’t be—couldn’t be—confined to only one sense. Because, as Hopkins concludes, “And for all this, nature is never spent; / There lives the dearest freshness deep down things; / And though the last lights off the black West went / Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs— / Because the Holy Ghost over the bent / World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.” Hallelujah!
But for now, I’m grateful to have eyes to see God’s glory—even if they’re hampered slightly by a pesky floater and flashes.
Blessings,

Posted at 8:51 AM on November 5, 2007.
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an elderly could no longer see to read, her favorite hobby, she refused to listen to books on tape--a prideful response. May God bless us with willingness to appreciate what we have, not complain about what we lost. Still, I haven't walked in her shoes.
Posted by: kit houdeshel on November 7, 2007
Jane, what an apt reminder, in this season of stunning colors. I loved how you wove these two sentences: He’s God of soft touch and rustling sound and earthy scent, of chill and warmth, loud and still, tart and sweet. His glory wouldn’t be—couldn’t be—confined to only one sense. So true--and such a timely statement as we approach Thanksgiving. Thanks for blessing me today.
Posted by: Photo Buffet on November 9, 2007
Loved your blog entry, but wanted to suggest a thought about your vision situation. I periodically have very similar symptoms, spots, flashes, floaters -- sometimes cutting off entire sections in my field of vision, so I actually need to turn my head to see things. The first time it happened, about four years ago, I was completely freaked out, thinking I was going blind, having a stroke -- I don't know what, but it was quite awful. I actually ended-up having an MRI. Here's what I discovered: there's a condition called an "ocular migraine." The headache isn't as severe as a full-on migraine, but vision is impacted. I get these one or two times a year, and they key to recovery is 800 mg of Advil and a nap. Maybe you're having ocular migraines also.
Posted by: Alison on November 9, 2007
He’s God of soft touch and rustling sound and earthy scent, of chill and warmth, loud and still, tart and sweet. His glory wouldn’t be—couldn’t be—confined to only one sense.
Jane, what a timely reminder. In the rush of the upcoming holiday season, it's too easy to leave the holy out of holiday, and to take certain things for granted. Your words slowed me down,=, and reminded me of a simple yet profound hymn from my childhood: "Count Your Blessings." Not only are we to count them, we're to "name them one by one."
God bless you!
Posted by: Photo Buffet on November 9, 2007
This is a beautiful story. I, too, take my eyesight for granted. But thankfully, the Lord has graciously given us five senses to use so we can appreciate all the beautiful things He has created. :)
Posted by: Rue on November 9, 2007
Since I just came back from the eye doctor and experienced the yellow drops today, I related to your story. While my eyes are healthy, the gradual changes in Rx. each year remind me that the aging process is filled with changes that call for readjustments either great or small. The poem you shared, is a wonderful reminder that God does not change. His creation and the seasons are continual reminders that encourge and sustain me. Thanks for sharing "God's Grandeur". By the way, my daughter's dog is also named "Boomer". Blessings. Linda Davison
Posted by: Linda Davison on November 9, 2007
Hello
I can relate! I too have been bothered by the pesky floaters since I was 17 but still feel blessed to see beyond the floaters and experience God's beauty each day. When I go to the doctor and whine about them, he reminds me of the alternatives. Needless to say, I am silenced by the blessing I already have.
Blessings to you!
Posted by: Patt on November 9, 2007
Jane, I loved this! I am a 26 year old who was born with Glaucoma, strange huh? I have been a science experiment my whole life. I thank God for my vision, and I'm so glad that God has blessed me to see what He does. It's hard at times, because I don't drive, but it could be so much worse. Thanks for this!
Posted by: Misty on November 9, 2007
Hello, Jane,
I just read your entry about your black dot and light flashes, when you turned your head. I had to reread your story, because at first I thought perhaps I misunderstood what you were saying. As I reread I reached out to brush the little black bug from my computer screen and then remembered it was my new friend dropping by to say, Hi, I am still here!
Honest Jane, your description is so similar to what I said to the doctor, the day after I had the same experience. X-rays, examination, numbing eye drops and a week later, I still have episodes. However, I also have a diagnosis. Eye Migraines! The diagnosis was confirmed earlier today.
God works His plan as we do His work! I can still write, which I do for supplemental income and I can still pray. The migraines will come and go, but the Lord is ever present.
Blessing, faholo!
Posted by: faholo on November 9, 2007
That was beautiful, and a reminder to us all to not take all we have around us for granted. I certainly know I will be taking more note of what God has set before me, and thank Him for it more oft too!
God bless,
Demelza
Posted by: Demelza on November 9, 2007
Very beautifully expressed. I love your descriptive writing. It made the message come alive. I felt like I was there. I'm a writer too and so this will go in my "best writing" file.
Reading this like was like eating a deliciously prepared lunch. Thank you!
Keep up the good writing!
Posted by: Sharon Gibson on November 9, 2007
This is written with such beautiful lyrical language, I returned in several places to reread.
Posted by: Patty J Hickman on November 9, 2007
So true, Jane! How is it that we mortals don't often appreciate God's abundant blessings (including all our senses) until we're at risk of losing them! I thank God for your heart-eyes and the desire to share.
Posted by: Barb on November 9, 2007
Thank you for sharing. I have a wonderful friend who has gradually lost her eyesight over the past 8 years. She is grateful still for the memories, for the varying shadows of light she can still see, and the wonderful technology available to her. What a wonderful example she is to her friends and family. May God bless you
Posted by: Rhonda on November 9, 2007
Thanks for sharing that, sis.
What an eye-opener (excuse the pun) and yes, it's funny how it'sot until we're lying in bed stuffed up with a cold that we appreciate the simple act of breathing in and out that we take for granted on a daily basis!
Thanks for the (very well-written) reminder not to take life - or God - for granted.
Bless you and your ministry. Hugs!
Posted by: Dana on November 10, 2007
yes Lord thank you for reminding me that each day as I wake up I have my sight to allow me to see my husband beside me, my 2 children still curling in bed, the beauty of my home around me, and yes, the joy of being able to read my Bible and shre my special time with you. Truly, we do take our eyes for granted, most often than not. We choose what we label as pleasant and unpleasant, yet...when we really come to think of it...as we use our sight to view things from God's perspective...it changes a lot of things...yes, even unpleasant things! I am reminded to take time to view life from God's eyes through my eyes.
Posted by: Mayang Ledesma on November 10, 2007
So that's what it is! Just out of my line of vision, to the side, I can 'sense' a type of sensation similar to how "travelling through a time-curtain" is portrayed in films. And it's like someone is squashing my eyeballs from the inside, or dribving a sharp blade through them...
Posted by: Tanja on November 10, 2007
I was reminded yesterday when I drove a friend to pick up her new glasses that being able to see at all is a gift from Him. In the office was a testimony of how a girl had come in for an exam and found out she had a brain tumor which, thankfully, they were able to remove with no damage. It went on to say that eye doctors should first of all act as doctors and be concerned with your health,
not only your eyes. I have an appointment
in a few weeks with my specialist. They have found a 'shadow' at the back of my eye. As my dad went blind with macular
degeneration, it would be easy to panic, but what I choose to do is to thank the Lord that whatever it is was found and that He will turn it for His glory and my good. p.s.
I'm a breast cancer recoverer as well.
Bless you all,
Pat
Posted by: Pat on November 10, 2007
thank you for sharing your message.i didnt realize how much i take my senses for granted,thank you for making me pause and appreciate the free gifts of God.
Posted by: sue on November 10, 2007
I have black stringy stuff swirling in my eyes all the time. The doctor said that it is the result of having had Iritis, an autoimmune disease.
Posted by: Ann on November 11, 2007
Dear Jane,
What a beautiful reflection. It especially caught my eye because I am writing a book manuscript titled Gentle Ecstasies: Reflections on the Healing Power of Beauty in the Midst of Melancholy. God uses beauty, I believe, to minister to and comfort us in the midst of pain. And, as you have said, beauty comes to us through each of our five senses: sight, sound, scent, taste and touch.
I would be glad to send you or anyone an excerpt from my book. I would also be glad to receive anecdotes from anyone about how God has used beauty of sight, sound, scent, taste or touch to provide comfort in times of depression, or at other especially difficult moments or seasons of life. (My email address is leonaenns@pppoe.ca)
Blessings to all of you, and Jane, thank you again for the gift of your beautiful writing. In language, too, we can find great comfort.
Posted by: Leona Enns on November 11, 2007
Jane, I am not a writer by trade, but a Praiser by Nature (since I was a small child) and I could see what you saw through your crafty pen. I'm 44 and had an awful scare a year ago at my last eye exam (a small fluid leak behind my eyeball/normal amt. for my age, I was told), but I will be watched on future exams. I was terrified at first; thought the worse and didn't know that there was anything that could be done, if things got worse. My heart just sank because I love to read and work with graphics (very visual person), who could not imagine being without my precious eyesight! I talk to the Lord constanty about them (my eyes) and I thanked Him tearfully for a good report (a few months ago) at my checkup; along with so many other senses and blessings HE has given. Indeed, I understand your thoughts and the other wonderful persons' testimonies concerning their situations and appreciate the helpful tips some offered. No, I'm not a young chicken any more, but there are so many age related incidences that are still NEW to me. Even though I'm fairly healthy, problems I've never experienced seem to creep up on me. I am convinced that I HAVE to trust God who will continue to take care of me as I grow older and wiser, even if I am unsure of what lies ahead. I truly believe HE loves us and cares for our hurts, pains and concerns in the aging process which is only preparing us for the grave and the Resurrection. Leaning and learning to trust HIM more and believe HE will do what is best at all times is difficult, I know, but God will do what no man can do and will fix everything that's broken in due season. Day by day, I'm learning more and more of what the bible means when it states, "There is a time and season for all things," but even in all of those seasons there is still room to rejoice in our later years! My prayer is,"May God allow everyone who has posted on this site to have their last days, be their best days!" Thank you all for your encouraging words. Love, Renee
Posted by: Renee on November 11, 2007
Hi Jane,
was encouraged by your passage.Indeed God had realli made everything for us to enjoy.Praise God for that!
I am an optometrist,like to reassure you that the floaters you are experiencing is common.If you are able to count the floaters,you dun have to worry.Floaters are opacities behind the eye structure.However if you are experiencing many foaters which you are not able to count.Then you will need to see the opthalmologist.As referred to the flashes of light,u are wise to check with the doc to make sure there is no retinal detachment.
Hope this can be a real help to you.Jesus loves you.
Blessings
Grace
Posted by: Grace Lim on November 11, 2007
I praise God for the sight to see. There was a rainbow in the sky last week that was so radiant I couldn't believe it. I just recovered from cataract surgery and it is as though the world is new. I can tell the difference between blue and green, thread a needle, see my puppy's lopsided smile, and read the Word! Just like Jesus helped the blind to see He gave sight so that we who were blind in sin could be free. God is good and I am full of thanksgiving.
Posted by: Sally Knower on November 12, 2007
My Mom is going through the same thing. The doctor told her she has Ischemic Optic Neuropathy and that there is no cure for this. She could lose her eyesight in a year or never. My Mom is scared and frustrated with the doctors. I am going to read her these blogs and hopefully give her some hope. I especially like what you said about His glory wouldn't be-couldn't be-confined to only one sense. I am hoping she will get great comfort from this. Thank you
Posted by: Sylvia on November 12, 2007
Jane your floaters story sounds very much like mine even down to the large black floater, which I initially thought was a worm that had fallen on my glasses, to the lightning flashes at the periphery of vision. I was so frightened that my husband rushed me to the ER and the nurses triaged my complaints and considered it serious. I had all the tests and a CT scan to rule out stroke or retinal tears. The next day I visited an ophthalmologist to confirm that all was Ok. Mine is just another adventure into the aging process.
The following week more floaters began to appear in the middle of my vision in both eyes. I’ve had to refrain from getting on the computer very often because it’s so difficult to see and strong light seems to refract off the floaters causing much glare.
I did take some time, however, to research floaters on the computer. I discovered a frightening coincidence. For two weeks prior to my first floater incident I had a severe back spasm and had been taking recommended doses of Ibuprophen regularly during those two weeks. Although rare, apparently some people can develop floaters after taking Ibuprophen or aspirin!
Some floaters will dissolve in time and I pray to God that this is the case for me. I’m not yet to the point of rejoicing that these floaters are God’s blessing, but I have to admit that getting off the computer is forcing me to look at my wonderful life with new, but much weaker, eyes.
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Posted by: Faultline USA on November 13, 2007
Your story is a blessing indeed. Blessings to all.
Posted by: poetryman69 on November 21, 2007
What a comfort to read everyone's blog. I have had the same eye problem described and was told that all is well but am still bothered by a certain blurriness in my vision on that eye. I, too, was extremely worried and called my niece who is an eye doctor and she got me in that evening to reassure me of it's normalcy. Thank you so much for your beautiful writing!
Posted by: Rebecca on December 4, 2007